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Amanda made me make one.
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And if this is what it takes
Just to lie with my mistakes
And live with what I did to you
All the hell i put you through
I always catch the clock
its 11:11
Now you wanna talk
Its not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

Well...

Momma is having a girl. =] And from the ultrasound, she looks beautiful already

No More

CHEMO

Bath Tub

She joked and played in the suds

Naked in the old claw foot bath tub

I laughed, shaving at the mirror

I liked her because she could make me laugh

Years later, she'd tell me,

"You were shaking your head left to right, with a

dumbfounded smile and said,

'I...love...you', and then left the room"

We had never said those words before

To anyone

The way I remembered it was

After I had grabbed a t-shirt from the bedroom, I came

back into the bathroom

And saw her perched on the side of the tub

Wide eyed

She said softly,

"I love you too"

David Mcwane

Hell To Mary

I was never very religious

So I didn't learn the rules of God

When to sit down

When to stand up

Which days you can eat

Which days you can't

I didn't even know why I owned church shoes when

I was young

I never who the hell David, Michael

And Peter were

David killed a giant monster with a slingshot right?

I knew that

"What was the bread again?"

"Jesus's body, his skin?"

"Gross"

"Why are we drinking juice in such a dramatic way?"

"We're pretending it's Jesus's blood?"

"Really? Gross"

"Why was the oversized organ the choice instrument?"

It all seemed creepy to me

But that didn't stop my parents from sending me to a

Religous camp

I still couldn't tell you which one

Catholic, Protestant, Jewish

They're all the same to me

It didn't matter, camp to me was...

Juice boxes, a bouncy ball and tug of war

There was one thing that camp had us do that

Always confused me

Before we went swimming, everyone would line up

Around the pool and say,

"Hell to Mary, Hell to Mary"

Then we could jump in and swim

I knew about there being a God

And a Jesus son guy, psst he's everywhere

Even a virgin Mary

They're on the front burner of religion

But weren't we supposed to like them?

Why were we condemning Mary to hell, I thought

But I really just wanted to jump in the pool

So, I'd screm loud, like everyone else

"Hell to Mary, Hell to Mary!"

Splash!

David Mcwane

Rhonda Update

Well, we may be done with chemo. The doctor told Rhonda that had to do x amount of treatments but they also say that she needs to do radiation for the extent of radiation. She has internal radiation coming up which she's pretty scared about. The first day she does it, they told her to expect to stay the whole day. She seems like she's starting to do a lot better. Suprisingly, she's at her best the day she does chemo. I guess it's the steroids.

money in the toilet

who do they think they are
to fill the urinal with coins,
when there are at least 3 homeless men outside?
do these men of money
demand that those in need must be humiliated
befoe the are given a pocketful of change?
I didn't like it
I wouldn't have it
I dove my hand into the urinal and took all the coins out
washed them in the sink
then dried them with folded paper towls
on my way out of the bar
I handed the coinage to three homeless men
who looked to be in their upper fifties
the men were much appreciative
they smiled lovingly and called me 'brother'
as I walked on home over the Longfellow Bridge feeling
my drunk
I listened to a crew boat coasting lightly atop the Charles River
and felt the warm breeze the Boston summers release
in my thoughts, I envisioned the men who had tossed the
coins in the toilet
and as I looked to where the lamp light of high
buildings reflected on the
ripples of the rower's small wakes
I thought of the men of money
I thought,
"you little bastards"

David McWane