money in the toilet

who do they think they are
to fill the urinal with coins,
when there are at least 3 homeless men outside?
do these men of money
demand that those in need must be humiliated
befoe the are given a pocketful of change?
I didn't like it
I wouldn't have it
I dove my hand into the urinal and took all the coins out
washed them in the sink
then dried them with folded paper towls
on my way out of the bar
I handed the coinage to three homeless men
who looked to be in their upper fifties
the men were much appreciative
they smiled lovingly and called me 'brother'
as I walked on home over the Longfellow Bridge feeling
my drunk
I listened to a crew boat coasting lightly atop the Charles River
and felt the warm breeze the Boston summers release
in my thoughts, I envisioned the men who had tossed the
coins in the toilet
and as I looked to where the lamp light of high
buildings reflected on the
ripples of the rower's small wakes
I thought of the men of money
I thought,
"you little bastards"

David McWane

Feeling Good's A Simple Combination

"You drink too much"-That's what my mother screams at me
"You look too rough"-My sisters are always naggin' me
"SHe don't try enough"-Teachers holler at me
But than I tune that all right out, Pop always said "You go live free"

So what's wrong ya'll?
Nothing at all!
Does the rest of the world know there's no stopping us all?

Play the music louder
Dance a little smoother
Stoke the fire bigger
And let's love a little longer

Valentines Day

1 box of chocolate covered strawberries
1 vase full of beautiful roses
1 Cobra Starship tee shirt
1 Big D And The Kids Table tee shirt
2 Big D And The Kids Table cds
Andddddd 1 Big D And The Kids Table concert (Best. Show. Ever.)



Best. Valentines Day. Ever
I love ChrisTopper =]

And 1 year anniversary tomorrow

Nowadays

1. I hate school - I hate all going to class, having a million things to get done all at one time, waking up way too early, walking to and from in the freezing cold, and worrying about not doing well.
2. I hate worrying about Rhonda - I hate not being able to be there for her. She's going through so much and I can only be around at most once a week.
3. I hate worrying about Wes - I want to find him a job so badly. I know that he's doing everything in his power and I hate all the stress being on him.
4. I hate worrying about mom - I'm not even there to help her through her pregnancy. I want to be able to help her with Fox, the housework, and preventing her boredom.
5. I hate not being with Fox - He's my little brother and I'm missing out on everything. When we say "Ready! Set!" he will yell "Go!" now. I haven't been around for so much. I'm scared he's going to forget me.
6. I hate never seeing my family - Holidays are the only time I see everybody and I miss them. Anybody that knows me knows how strange it is that I miss them.
7. I hate bronchitis - I'm tired of not being able to breathe.
8. I hate missing my pets - All 10 of them...
9. I hate only enjoying the weekends - The weekends are the only time I have fun anymore. I'm sure TJ can back me up on this one.
10. I hate hating everything now. I'm ready for all this stress to go away.

I just want everything to go back to normal.

Update on Rhonda

Well after a surgery, they determined she is in stage 3. It's touching bone but it hasn't entered the bone yet. She's still in an extreme amount of pain. They've given her plenty of pain killers and even some morphine. See?:

Tomorrow she will finally start her chemo. She goes through one round of that and who knows how long that will take. She's also going to be going through radiation soon. She got some nifty tattoos out of it all though. The doctors needed some sort of target in order to shoot her with the radiation.

Rhonda

This is my aunt Rhonda. She likes watching UGA play, going to concerts, hanging out with friends, and most of all spending time with family. For anyone that has met her, you know that she’s an overall happy person. On January 18, 2009, after months of living with pain, fatigue, discharge, and weight loss, she was diagnosed with cervical cancer.

Rhonda went to the same doctor time and time again over months. She was always told the same thing; she was either ovulating or stressed out. She visited the ER several times only to be told to visit her doctor. She was finally given a number to call to set up a laparoscopic surgery. She called constantly for days and days. The calls always went to the answering machine. It said that they were open but were busy or with another patient.

Finally giving up, Rhonda visited a different doctor. After a single visit, he told her that she had cervical cancer. This doctor figured that out after one visit. How is it possibly that the first doctor couldn’t figure it out after all those visits? Does he just not care or just not know what he’s doing. Whatever the case, he doesn’t deserve to practice medicine.

Rhonda could have been fighting this for months. Now thanks to that doctor, time is flying by. She is scheduled for a CAT scan and two pre-ops on Friday. We will know where to go from there. A surgery is scheduled for Tuesday. We have no idea if it has spread yet. All I know is that I’m going to try my hardest to make sure something happens with this lawyer so that nothing like this ever has to happen to any other woman ever again.

With all this going on, I'll be spending a lot more time in Franklin County. I'm going to be there with Rhonda as much as possible. I'll try to keep everyone updated as soon as I find anything out.